This week’s readings and sit, have opened my eyes to yet a new view of observing past beliefs about myself. There were so many messages this week to remind me of who I really am. Master Key lesson 20.31: “That you ARE because He IS, that if He is Omnipresent He must be in you”.
Og, Scroll V: “Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when others, far better than I, have departed? Is it that they have accomplished their purpose while mine is yet to be achieved? Is this another opportunity for me to become the [wo]man I know I can be? Is there a purpose in nature? Is this my day to excel?” What am I pretending not to know?”
Master Key lesson 20.8: “When you begin to perceive that the essence of the Universal is within yourself – is you – you being to do things; you begin to feel your power; it is the fuel which fires the imagination; which lights the torch of inspiration; which give vitality to thought; which enables you to connect with all the invisible forces of the Universe. It is this power which will enable you to plan fearlessly, to execute masterfully.”
So, if I’ve had ‘it’ in me all along, what am I pretending not to know about myself? The negative feelings I have believed about myself that have been created from past traumas and events have kept me in the comfort zone, ‘zoning’ out or numbing out not to follow my dreams.
What we learned this week is that we have used fear, guilt, hurt feelings, anger, and unworthiness to numb ourselves out in the comfort zone which paralyzes progress to be able to take action to fulfill our dreams. These are all perceived feelings, strong emotional feelings, fueling the recurring peptides that keep the cement Buddha, negative thoughts and feelings about ourselves, in place.
When I think about my past in regard to these emotions and feelings, or my shadows as some call them, which make up the cement Buddha, I can hook them all together. FEAR — ‘what will they think of me’ since I am different; HURT FEELINGS and ANGER — ‘I was left out because of my shyness and being overweight and being different’ and thus led to UNWORTHINESS — ‘I’ll never measure up’; GUILT — ‘I couldn’t change myself and continued to diminish and vanish into the background’!
This week, however, we are observing these perceived feelings as tools to reveal what has kept us in the comfort zone. Another way to look at this process is that every shadow has a virtue. By welcoming and identifying the other side or the good side of the shadow we are able to see how these perceived feelings have no truth in what we fear about life. As a result, the shadow no longer robs our love for ourselves and for our dreams. In fact, tremendous power can be reclaimed.
I now realize that I have been on my own path all along. I have been living and experiencing the very essence that I see to provide the world – healing the cement Buddha so that the Hero’s Journey can be fulfilled. The Master Key Experience is giving me the courage to melt away the old beliefs and see the true me so to follow my definite major purpose!!
I AM WHOLE, PERFECT, STRONG, POWERFUL, LOVING, HARMONIOUS & HAPPY.
I WILL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS GREAT QUOTE AS A TOOL TO MANAGE YOUR FEAR:
“What do we do? How do we move forward when we’re tired and afraid? What do we do when the voice in our head is yelling THAT WE ARE NEVER GONNA MAKE IT! How do we drag ourselves through the muck when our brain is telling us you are dumb and you will never finish and no one cares and it’s time you stop.
Well, the first thing we do is we take our brain out and we put it in a drawer. Stick it somewhere and let it tantrum until it wears itself out. You may still hear the brain and all the shitty things it’s saying to you, but it will be muffled. And just the fact that it’s not in your head anymore will make things seem clearer.
And then, you just do it. You just dig in and write it. You use your body you lean over the computer and stretch and pace. You write, and then cook something. And write some more.
You put your hand on your heart and feel it beating and decide if what you wrote feels true.
You do it. Because the doing of it is the thing. The doing is the thing. The talking and worrying and thinking is not the thing. This is what I know.
Writing the book is about writing the book.
So here we go you and me. Because what else are we going to do? Say no? Say no to an opportunity that may be slightly out of our comfort zone? Quiet our voice because we are worried it’s not perfect? I believe great people do things before they are ready.” ― Amy Poehler, Yes Please